Today’s prompt for “Living Fully” is to copy the following quote somewhere- a notebook, a piece of paper, etc- and simply… well, take note of it.
Man. Sometimes things just hit you between the eyes. I had just published my previous post titled “Hitting Reset” and was about to head to bed when I remembered that earlier in the day I signed up for Project 137, which was created by one of my favorite writers, Patti Digh. (She loves me, you know.)
Anyway… in yesterday’s post, I deleted the part in which I explain that while I am super excited about the fresh start my husband and my children get to have, I am beyond frustrated that MY life still seems to be in a holding pattern.
For the fourth time in four years, I’m the one who gets to pick up the pieces of our life and patch them together. Meanwhile my husband gets to pursue his ambitions and yet another one of his dreams, I am the one stuck at home anxiously waiting to hear back from second interviews and neurotically labeling school supplies.
Hoping. Waiting. Wishing. Waiting. Missing. Waiting. Maddening. Waiting.
Reading the quote above, I am reminded of the reasons we decide to leave Silicon Valley and the life I so crushingly created for us there. I am also reminded of our reasons from coming back to Texas– the promise of the stability, the chance for our children be raised among family, a level of ease and comfort.
I am not denying that there are GOOD things, but I wasn’t the one who was miserable. I wasn’t the one who needed another fresh start and a trip back to square one.
And yet… here I am. This is my life and I’m waiting for it to be MY turn.
What are you waiting for?
What would you do if you only had 137 days to live?
This post was inspired by Patti Digh’s Project 137. Why 137? I hope that you will join me and find out.